Life has a way of sweeping us off our feet, doesn’t it?

Yet, amidst the chaos and tumult, there’s a flicker of resilience, a glimmer of hope that persists. I started this site with a simple mission: to guide others in reshaping their mindset around manifestation, to help them weave manifestation into the very fabric of their daily lives. Little did I know, life had its own plans for me, plans that would put my beliefs and resilience to the ultimate test.

Here I share my journey of loss, grief, and the unwavering spirit that emerged from the depths of despair.

The year 2023 was the most challenging year I’ve ever faced (and believe me, I’ve had some challenges!)

My cat unexpectedly died. And it was traumatic. Something was wrong in that he wasn’t eating like he should. Took him to the vet, they run tests and find nothing. Then that weekend he goes into a seizure that he doesn’t seem able to get out of. We drive 2 hours to the only emergency vet open at 2AM (and I live so far away from emergency vets, it’s the closest anyway).

A few days later, after numerous tests and absolutely no answers, he is still unable to safely come out without his anti-seizure meds. And the anti-seizure meds keep him mostly comatose. The doctor suspects cancer because of a lump they saw in the scan, but there’s no way to know. We had to make the very tough decision to let him go, and we were able to hold him as he left this world.

My life fell apart. I thought countless times of coming here and writing about the grief. But I just couldn’t.

Even now talking about it, I’m breaking apart.

Two months later, we lost some of our “feral cat community cats” to predators. Back to back. One of them had been with us for 20 years, and had just come around to letting us pet her. We handle a community, a sanctuary, and provide the best care we can to cats who show up, get dumped, but don’t trust humans. Predators have never happened before. It was devastating.

And then…my aunt died. She was only seven year’s older than me, and we were more like sisters. She was the maid of honor at my wedding so long ago. And her mother, my maternal grandmother, had now lost her husband, her sister and her four children. My aunt was the youngest child but lived the longest, past her fifties.

It was a tragic blow in my life. And as I’m recuperating, I lose my job.

The company was struggling to make ends meet. Blah blah blah they hated to let me go. But they did, leaving me with vet bills, no insurance, and other things.

Other things happened, but none of that matters anymore. I just wanted to post this as a short intro to everything that has kept me away.

And the only thing that helped me survive it all was the belief in my own Higher Power. Higher Source. Not giving up on life. My cat still visits me at night. I feel him making biscuits on the covers he used to sleep on. I’ve done all the work, the healing work I’ve learned and that I continue to do on myself.

And now, more than ever, I want to help others as well.

Did I “manifest” this? I don’t believe so (although I probably did manifest the job loss and mounting debt). Because I don’t believe that you manifest everything that’s going on in your life. (If that were true, I would be a millionaire!) But I do believe that manifestation is a powerful tool to help you grow into the best version of yourself.

I could fall down and refuse to live in joy each day. Feel sorry for myself. Pity my life. Focus on all that’s going on, all the lack and what ifs. I could make bad things continue to happen (yes, I do believe in manifestation in that way).

Or I could wake up rejoicing in this day. Making the strong changes I can make in my life, and affirming empowering messages of love, joy, peace, and gratitude.

I have two beautiful and amazing donkeys now that help keep watch over our property. I have a beautiful relationship with my grandmother that I never had before. I have a new nephew that I get to love and celebrate!

It’s the bud of emerging opportunities amidst the pain. I’ve learned to not suppress my emotions. I’ve learned that it’s okay to cry without fear the emotions will overtake me. I also learned to rejoice in every moment I have, every scent of flowers, every breeze through the trees and the dew on the grass. And to take things day by day. To do all the things I can do to keep my mindset strong.

And to trust that it’s all going to work out. To surrender and trust.

I also realized, more than ever, that I want to help others through coaching them and teaching them, inspiring and helping them through whatever they may be going through.

I jotted down a lot of things about grief and manifestation when I was going through it, and maybe one day I’ll write about those. I also discovered many books along the way that helped me.

Sometimes for me, it is “maybe one day I will…”

But if you’re tired of saying “Maybe one day…” please reach out to me to learn about my coaching practices.

(I’m currently working on setting up a schedule for you to easily schedule).

In the wake of grief’s storm, I stand before you today, battered but not broken, scarred but not defeated. Through the darkest nights of loss, I discovered the unyielding strength of the human spirit, the power of resilience, and the unwavering light of hope that guides us through the darkest of times. As I navigate the terrain of my own healing journey, I’m reminded of the words of poet Rumi, ‘The wound is the place where the Light enters you.’ May we all find solace in the knowledge that even in our deepest wounds, there lies the potential for transformation and growth.

So, as I bid you farewell for now, dear reader, know that you are not alone on your journey. Reach out, seek support, and embrace the journey of healing and self-discovery with courage and compassion. And remember, in the tapestry of life, every thread—whether of joy or sorrow—contributes to the richness of our human experience. Thank you for joining me on this journey.

Until we meet again, may you walk in the light of your own resilience and the boundless possibilities of your future.

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But in April, my life completely fell apart.

I questioned everything about what I thought I knew about, well, everything.

And the last thing I wanted to do was talk about it or share it with others. Sometimes, I can be really bad about that.

And just when I thought I was going to be okay, it fell apart again. And again, and again. As a matter of fact, I’m still reeling.

But I’ve been working on a book about manifestation, and as a matter of fact it is very close to being ready.

I also suffered loss. And loss after loss.

I handle/ own my own cat sanctuary, all on my own out of my own pocket to help our neighborhood cats that can’t find homes and have no other choice. We suffered some predator attacks. After thinking we had it all under control, it happened again. One of those deaths was the death of a 20-year-old cat who was feral until just a few years ago. She still went feral if you tried putting her inside, and she would not go to anyone but my husband or me. But, over the years, she learned to trust us. They have their safe spots, barns and buildings, but she loved being outside.

And I felt like I had failed her completely.

Along with an indoor cat who very suddenly and unexpectedly died after being rushed to an emergency hospital for uncontrollable seizures. And then, my aunt died. Young, only 7 years older than me and more like a sister.

I share some of this my book.

Let me tell you, in the deep dark stages of grief when you question everything and you start searching for answers, it may not be the best time to share yourself with others. Or at least it didn’t feel like it was to me.  

And sometimes, those answers don’t come. Sometimes there comes a time you stop searching and have to start living, day by day, moment by moment.

I had to ask myself those 3 most important questions. And sometimes, I still didn’t have answers to those questions. All I thought was: There are no guarantees in life. What if manifestation is a bunch of woo-woo? Or what if my fears and uncertainties cause a lot of bad but certainly no good? Good certainly wasn’t happening for me. How can I possibly help others? I can barely get my own life figured out.

Thank you, Hal Elrod, for putting some of those journaling prompts into perspective for me so I can at least get it down on paper and out of my body. Because boy was my body feeling it.

Let me be clear: I don’t believe manifestation is some simple secret formula where you just think, believe, and feel something strongly enough, and it magically appears in your life. It’s far from a linear path, and it’s a deeply personal journey for each individual.

However, within this intricate journey, there are fundamental principles, akin to the laws of the universe, that can guide us. Among the many facets, two major hurdles are often limiting beliefs and fears. Manifestation isn’t solely about wishing for something and watching it materialize. It’s about aligning your thoughts, energies, emotions, beliefs, and actions to become the best version of yourself and live your most fulfilling life.

That’s my goal with this blog, my coaching business, and my products. To help others with this alignment and this mindset.

But I definitely wasn’t living that path.

And I knew, little by little, life is short and it was time to do what I can to help others. Because we may not be promised tomorrow, but we are promised the moment we are in right now because we are in it.

And we shouldn’t let anything hold us back. Fears, lack of confidence, limiting beliefs, or even perceived lack of knowledge.

And I’ve done that for too long. I have written books, pieces of books. Workbooks and journals and even a quick course that I wanted to use to help others. And I kept being held back because of fear.

And when I say kept holding back I mean years and years and years of creating these things and holding myself back.

Fear of what? I didn’t even know. Judgment? Ridicule? Shame even? I’m not really sure, as I didn’t really feel these things. I am introverted and have a fear of being seen. Which I can’t really understand but that’s the way I am.

Also fear of putting it all out there and nothing happening, which has happened to me before. Hence the fear.

The Funny Thing About Fear

But that’s the funny thing about fear. It can be a powerful force that keeps us from realizing our full potential. It can stop us from sharing our gifts, our knowledge, and our experiences with the world. It can make us doubt ourselves and our abilities.

I’ve come to realize that fear is just a feeling, and feelings can be managed. It’s okay to have doubts and insecurities; they’re part of being human. The key is not to let them paralyze you.

In the depths of my grief, I found the strength to face my fears and insecurities head-on. I channeled my pain and loss into something positive—my upcoming book on manifestation. It’s a culmination of years of learning, growing, and yes, overcoming fear.

I’ve learned that it’s okay to be an introvert and still put myself out there. It’s okay to fear judgment or ridicule, but it’s not okay to let that fear control my actions. It’s okay to even have a comfort zone and even find security there, but it’s not okay to keep myself small. Even if I may still occasional do it.

So, here I am, sharing my story with you today, even though it’s not all rainbows and sunshine. Life is messy, and sometimes, we need to embrace the mess to find the beauty within it.

I’m here to tell you that you don’t have to let fear hold you back any longer. You have the ability to change your mindset, overcome obstacles, and manifest your dreams. I hope you’ll join me on this journey of self-discovery and empowerment.

Now that we’ve discussed the importance of embracing life’s messiness and overcoming fear, let’s explore some practical steps you can take to harness the power of manifestation and move towards your dreams.

Acknowledge and Accept Emotions:

Life can throw unexpected challenges and losses our way, and it’s essential to acknowledge the emotions that come with them. Whether it’s grief, fear, or doubt, allow yourself to feel these emotions without judgment. Feeling these emotions is the first step to healing and moving forward.

Challenge Fear as a Limiting Belief:

Fear can be a powerful force that holds us back from pursuing our goals and sharing our talents. It’s crucial to recognize that fear is just a feeling, and it can be managed. Challenge fear as a limiting belief by questioning its validity. What evidence do you have that your fear will come true? Often, you’ll find that fear is based on unfounded assumptions.

Take Small Steps Towards Your Goals:

Overcoming fear and embracing life’s messiness is a journey, not an overnight transformation. Take small, manageable steps toward your goals, even if these steps feel outside your comfort zone. By gradually expanding your boundaries, you can build confidence and resilience over time. Remember, it’s the small steps that often lead to significant breakthroughs on the path to manifesting your dreams.

Stay tuned for more posts on manifestation, self-care, and personal growth. Remember, life is short, and we owe it to ourselves to make the most of every moment.

Thank you for being part of this journey with me!

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