AngelaI am a manifestation genius.
And let me tell you why that is so.
You see, for years and years I manifested failure, debt, and stress.
My life was okay. I was grateful for everything, or at least I tried to be.
But every single day, I was miserable working in a toxic job that truly felt like it was stealing my soul. And for years, I put my heart and soul into what I really thought I wanted, which was a publishing career in fiction romance.
And every day, I continued focusing on the lack, the doubt, and why in the world things just weren’t working out for me.
My home seemed to be falling apart around me. There was always so much work to be done! And yet here I was trying to manifest a new one!
Life was a struggle.
Nothing seemed to work out for me.
I read all the books. I knew I needed to start focusing on abundance and stop focusing on lack, but no matter how hard I tried to start my day off with a positive attitude, I would walk into the door at my toxic job and be bombarded with negativity.
You see, I worked in prosecution. How in the world could I believe in manifestation when the world was falling apart literally around me? We prosecuted abuse, murder, drug and alcohol addiction. We handled victims of violent crimes, and sometimes the prosecutors seemed worse than the criminals.
If you have a positive frame of mind, you can manifest positive things in your life.
Alesha Dixon
Love and compassion in my line of work? Forget about it.
I stopped writing. I stopped creating. I stopped dreaming.
It took its toll on me. Then my grandmother died, and I “inherited” her manifestation journal. My life literally changed, but it wasn’t an overnight jump.
I sought out courses such as Manifestation Babe, Marisa Peer, and Mandy Morris, to name a few. I had followed Gabby Bernstein for years and took her 21-day manifestation course almost yearly. I occasionally received signs.
But none of those were enough. I still struggled. I still doubted every single step in my journey. I struggled with trusting in myself, even though I always felt I had a good relationship with God. But then I questioned any of this, because what if all of this meant I was being led astray? That’s what most of my family members would say.
Nurture your mind with great thoughts, for you will never go any higher than you think.
Benjamin Disraeli
I started changing my self-talk.
And I also realized I had been blocking some intuitive gifts within me.
I was already meditating, but I started doing more meditation. I started doing breathwork in addition to my meditation. Then I learned all about hypnotherapy and got interested in certified coaching. I decided to get certified in Reiki, and looked into sound healing.
And in the mix of all that, I manifested a career change. I recognized my intuition. I unblocked some serious chakra blockages. And I released a lot of trauma, even trauma that was never mine to begin with.
Now, the new job may not have been everything I wanted, and it actually paid less money, but it was a step in the right direction, and one I desperately needed to get my head on straight.
I had always wanted to blog about my love of personal development, and I won’t mention how many websites I purchased thinking this is the one. And how many times I tried to get started.
And how many times I failed.
Failed shining my light? Check. Failed in recognizing my strengths? Check. Failed in self-love? Check.
But one thing I didn’t fail at was doubting myself.
So you see, I manifested failure in all directions of my life. Until I changed my focus, my mindset, and my self-talk.
And now I am here to share my journey of transformation. You read more about me on my ABOUT page, and keep in touch with me here.
Change sustained long enough will be transformation.
Mahatria
